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	February 2005 February 12, 2005 \|Time\| 4:30 PM \|Sound\| "Bloulevard of Broken Dreams" Green Day \|Habit\| accomplishing nothing on my time off \|Feel\| hot \|Think\| Why did I decide to drink the flat Pepsi? Now before I start, I need to explain that I refused to participate in Valentine's Day last year since. I told Sean that I didn't want anything at all. Now I understand that most guys will take that as, "I'm going to say I don't want anything, but I'll be pissed if you don't get me something really good.", but Sean understood that I meant what I said. The reason for not wanting to do the whole Valentine's Day thing is because I don't really think you need a day to have someone know they love you and that you love them. It's been a "holiday" to get people in trouble and make others feel depressed. I'll never understand girls who are obsessed with it and demand a better present every year. Basically they're just trying to get anything and everything out of it. If you're going to celebrate a love-filled day, that shouldn't require gifts of any kind. That's just me though... For some reason this year, I decided to go ahead and join in on Valentine's Day. I know Sean wanted to get me something last year, and I figured the same for this year. I really don't know if that's the reason I decided to have it. Turns out he was going to get me something anyway, so it was a good thing I told him that we could get each other things. He's just so sweet. Of course we can't be normal, that'd just be silly; we exchanged gifts yesterday. I gave him a Snoopy card and a little Love Bandit Snoopy stuffed animal. We love Snoopy, and we also have sort of an inside joke with it. It's not really a joke but more of a personal thing we have. Well, I got the premium assortment of Hershey's Pot of Gold chocolates, a pink rose candle which is rose scented, a really soft pink bear holding a heart that says "Only You" and on it's right foot is "Our First Valentine 2005", a sweet card, and then a Snoopy hugging Woodstock card which he wrote a sweet message on. He spent about 5 to 6 times more than I did, and I really wasn't expecting all of that. I wish I had gotten him the little Woodstock stuffed animal I had seen next to the Snoopy one I got. I cried when I wrote the message in the card I was giving Sean, and then I cried when I read my two cards I got. I cry about everything. I cried when our wedding started. I cried when Sean's shoulder was hurt and he couldn't use his left arm. I cried a lot when I first started talking to Sean because every now and then he'd say something about how he cared about me. I cried every time Sean and I had to separate when we visited each other. I'm crying now just thinking about how hard it was to have to leave him. Me just thinking about how we had to be apart, how much I love Sean, and how lucky I am makes me cry... and I think about how lucky I am really often. I'd say it's obvious that I could never live without him. February 9, 2005 \|Time\| 5:26 PM \|Sound\| "Since You've Been Gone" Kelly Clarkson \|Habit\| not eating much during the day \|Feel\| lower back hurts \|Think\| I'm so happy I hurt my left knee last Friday. I was crouched and censoring clothes. While still crouched, I turned to the left. I didn't realize the area where the wall comes out was right there. Slammed my knee right into that corner. I don't know how I got that much force behind it, but it hurt like hell. At first it was a really awkward and painful feeling, then it was just painful. I couldn't bend my knee without it hurting the rest of Friday, and then all day Saturday. I had to hobble around at work, which was fun. I was able to bend it enough to walk properly on Sunday, and it's good now. I found out at the beginning of last week that I was going to have the interview for the manager position. Danyele helped me pick out an outfit in the store for the interview. Then I found out two days from then that Candy wasn't going to be able to come, so she was going to do a phone interview with me. I was so happy about the phone interview. That's what I wanted. Some people don't like it, but I prefer it to sitting face-to-face with a person who's interviewing me. I just get really nervous, and it's not fun. I went ahead and exchanged the shirt I got for the interview for our black city-stretch shirt with blue and green stripes. I made myself incredibly nervous before the interview. That morning I got sick, then I felt like I was going to be sick after that. Once my interview started, I felt fine. It was so much easier than I thought it was going to be. She just asked me questions about the store and that was it. It lasted about a half hour too. Then I filled out a paper to do a background check, and was told that I'd know in about a week if I got the job. Candy came to the store today to make sure everything was going alright. I got promoted! I'm now the Assistant Sales Manager at New York & Company. It's a salary job, and I'll be making about 3 times as much a than I'm making now per week. Also the insurance coverage is $20-$30 cheaper than what we're paying through Sean's job. I still have to go through and see what kind of coverage I want and all and then sign up for it. Now I can actually have federal taken out of my paychecks too. I apparently wasn't making enough a week for it to be taken out. Luckily I hadn't worked there that long before tax time, so I'm filing separately from Sean so that I don't have to pay into it. I had to fill out a paper today, and Sean is my beneficiary. They allow you to have three people, but who else would I give my money to if something happened to me? I have to go back up to work right before 9pm so that Danyele can show me how to close. It should be pretty easy. Archives


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