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	March 2004 March 31, 2004 \|Time\| 3:40 PM \|Sound\| "Reptilia" The Strokes \|Habit\| only working on projects in class \|Feel\| right side of my mouth is numb \|Think\| just read... I went to the dentist today since I had to get a cavity filled. I was in the waiting room, waiting obviously, and the receptionist started talking to me. That's fine, of course she then said she heard I was getting married. Now, I wasn't there too long ago for my appointment and I had that same exact conversation with her. Sure it's interesting that she remembered, but it was repetitive. Then she asked me if I was happy to be at the dentist today. Advice to everyone: If someone asks you this question, give them a very sarcastic response. It's the only thing to do; any other type of response will not be adequate. The dentist is the reason for my mouth being numb though. It's so evil with the horrid sounds, drilling, grinding, scraping, insanely cold water, and of course having to keep one's mouth open so wide for so long. I will never understand how Sean can go through all of the madness without having his mouth numbed... shivers My mom and I went shopping to Walmart last night. I returned my clock I got. I think it may have just been the one I got, but the back-up battery didn't work at all. I now have an RCA with the option of dimming and of course two very easy to set and use wake modes. I no longer have to change my original alarm time should I need to get up early for some other reason. This was the not the main reason for going shopping of course. I got Classic Cafe Blue Corelle plates, 2 drink pitchers, spatula, stirring spoon, glass measuring cup, clothes hangers, and a very cute toothbrush holder. I'd get a picture of the toothbrush holder if the walmart site didn't suck so much. Honestly they have absolutely nothing on their site. When we checked out, the cashier asked if I was moving out. It's interesting how many conversations about moving and such one has when they are indeed moving. Same goes with being engaged. For some reason people like to start conversations with me, which is alright with me. This week we were supposed to start doing JavaBeans again; however, we learned on Monday that we were going to be doing a PHP project for 4x4 Support. Sure it's nice that we get to do a project which can be included in our portfolio and whatnot, but they keep putting off what we're supposed to be learning. This is my group's site. I coded the layout along with the CSS (for some reason nobody likes CSS) and also did the coding to for the form information to be added into our database. Kristen made the database along with the search page. Josh is doing our navigation buttons in flash along with a logo. And Brian is currently working on the profile page. I'm currently trying to figure out a way to code certain things in so that user ID numbers will match their information in the second table we have. There of course are some problems with the whole database system which could be a reason for it not working properly. I don't know. We still need to do our feedback page, along with a better contact page, and we need to write the purpose of the site on the main page. I really don't want to have to do write that stuff... March 27, 2004 \|Time\| 7:40 PM \|Sound\| "Yeah" Usher \|Habit\| doing nothing \|Feel\| sore \|Think\| I should probably stop repeating this song... I am pretty much done with packing small items in my room. I only ended up with 3 boxes. I do of course still have to pack some breakable figures, shotglasses, etc; computer books, electronics, and of course my clothes. I'll get to it all; this week was really for stuff that I'm not going to be using again before I leave and to make sure I had all of my small things packed. I went mattress shopping on Wednesday. There were two Spring Air ones that were really nice. Of course they were basically equal in comfort and I may have gone with the one had the mattress not been about 18 inches thick. I'm not exaggerating, and we even asked how thick it was. I already have to buy sheets for a king size bed, and I really don't need to add on to the cost or make it difficult to find the sheets I want. I'm going with the Posture Comfort mattress. Speaking of shopping.. I went to Walmart with Rachel last night and bought a digital alarm clock. My first ever digital clock. Scary thought, I know. I've always had a battery operated ticking clock, but now I have a quiet clock that can be read in the dark. This is my clock, however I found it for about $8 at Walmart. While I'm on the topic of items, I got one of my great grandpa's Melody in Motion. There were 5 of them and 5 of us grandkids so we all got one. I immediately said I wanted the pirate and was surprised that nobody wanted the pirate. But yeah, it's fun and it's a retired one as well. March 23, 2004 \|Time\| 12:05 AM \|Sound\| computer humming \|Habit\| staying up late \|Feel\| tired \|Think\| It's past my bedtime. I've been getting stupid junk mail recently, and the latest one seemed to top them all. They had in the sender name "World Philanthropists Organization," and the subject was "An Invitation." It's becoming such a sad case when people decide to put stupid shit like that as the information in hopes of someone opening the message. I suppose there are those ignorant people out there that would, but then there are others like me who look at that and laugh as they click the block/delete/junk mail button. Of course that was funny to me anyway; do I want to help people? No. That email was way more fun than the other language junk mail that I'm mainly receiving now. It's even more fun than the mail that has no send date and those that have send dates that are from a date that has yet to come. They really need to be a little more intelligent if they want people to open their messages. I started packing yesterday. I've got about 3 boxes packed, only one of which is actually full to the top. I'm still in search of light items that I can throw into the other two boxes. It's amazing how heavy a box full of dvds is. I for one did not expect it to be quite like that, but I can still lift it so it's fine. That box is somewhat close to being full. I still have to get my dvds back from my sister, and I also have to add my nes/snes/n64 games yet. I think I may throw the 5 cd cases I have in there as well. I'm throwing away all other cds cases, but I do need to have my DBZ background music cases. The one box that is full contains almost all of my paperback books, and has all of my DBZ and Gundam figures along with some stuffed animals. Had I not added the stuffed animals, it wouldn't have become a full box. The third box contains half of my hardback books since they are somewhat heavy, my triazzle puzzles, my keychain collection, my DBZ pinball machine, and my Mario Kart64 phone. I'm still trying to figure out how exactly I'm going to split all of my books up since I still have some hardback books left and I have quite a few computer books as well. What's left? Things I haven't thought about yet and things that aren't going to be packed until closer to time, such as my game systems, vcr, clothing, etc. Right now I'm thinking 5 boxes for items not including clothes and large items that won't go in boxes. I'm still not sure how I want to pack my clothes. At the moment I'm thinking I'll take them my shirts out of my closet, hangers and all, and place them in my car the night before I leave so that they don't get all crazy wrinkled. All I have to say is that I don't iron unless I have to, and I'm sure as hell not ironing all of my shirts. Wednesday I'm going matress shopping. The headboard has already been sent to and received by Sean; I just need to find a matress I like and then get some sheets and blankets. I also need to get some plates which can be placed in the microwave seeing as I only have some nice ones that can't. My mom is also planning on taking my shopping for clothes and shoes before I leave. She's buying me work clothes and shoes, which is very nice of her seeing as I greatly need that. Of course she buys all of my stuff now anyway since I really don't have a job at the moment. But back to my box guess... 5 boxes of items in my room; I'm not including dishes and all of that stuff in with that count. That's a completely separate issue. I won't go over 5 though. March 15, 2004 \|Time\| 6:46 PM \|Sound\| "Falls On Me" Fuel \|Habit\| doing nothing \|Feel\| I think I may be getting a headache. \|Think\| Why isn't it May 20th yet? I need to start doing this more often again. If I did it more often then I wouldn't have so much to talk about all at one time. It seems that I ended up with a 92% for Security. I had an 86 on the one week and a 98 on the second; if I had gotten one point higher on either part, I would have ended up with a 92.5 average which would have thrown me up to an A. But no, I got a B+... I was just so close... School is just kinda there. We had started on CORBA, but then after a day of that my teacher decided we really couldn't do anything with it since we didn't have some network thing set up. Then we switched over to JavaBeans so that we could do that and then go back to CORBA once we were done with spring break; however we spent two days doing JavaBeans and did nothing with it, and then today my teacher decided to do a week of random stuff. Monday-Tuesday (today and tomorrow) we're doing PHP and mySQL and making a page that plays with a database. Wednesday-Friday we're doing Flash scripting. I can't say I'm looking forward to that since I'm not entirely sure what all that involves or what it will be like at all. I'm going to assume now that I'm not going to like it much, if at all. Friday night I went out with Melissa, Becky, and Jenny since everyone had spring break last week. We went out to eat at Steak n Shake and then went over to the other Melissa's house to see if she was home and to talk with her since we hadn't seen her or talked to her in almost a year. I suppose it was alright. I don't get to talk to them much anymore let alone see them; however, sometimes I just don't care about certain things and I can't really enjoy conversations that revolve solely around things that I have no idea about. Also, I hate when a certain friend of mine decides to talk about a guy or guys forever and that's all she ever talks about. I honestly just don't even care anymore. It's fine if people talk about things that are going on and whatever, but there's a limit as to how much one can do that. I love my friends and all, but I just don't want to hear every single detail of their lives. I can only hear about every detail of Sean's life and that's because I care about him more than anything and I want to know everything. Saturday I baby-sat a 6-year-old, or at least I think he's 6. Anyway, I did that from 10am to 3pm and got paid $35. $7 an hour, not bad... Of course, the only thing I did the entire time was watch him play a Sonic game on Gamecube and that was it. I can't complain though since I did nothing and got paid for it. Even if the kid did just play 2 levels repeatedly the entire time... Moving on, my sister came over on Sunday and we played Mario Kart Double Dash on Gamecube. I think I could beat the races if I wasn't playing with her. But yeah, we suck at it and can't beat certain mirror races. Oh well, I can play it on my own whenever I move. I know Sean will let me do that, he's sweet like that. Just like he's going to let me finish Final Fantasy 7, and then play Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic. I'm determined to finish everything! I really do want to finish Final Fantasy 7 but I know I'm not going to before May 20. Plus if I start on Star Wars, Sean will force me to finish, otherwise I'm not allowed to even play it. =) March 4, 2004 \|Time\| 5:07 PM \|Sound\| "With You" Jessica Simpson \|Habit\| getting hurt \|Feel\| my right wrist hurts \|Think\| It's been an odd week. Alright, for school we had a Security class that was only supposed to last a week but it ended up really being about two weeks. Well, we had a few people who didn't pass, and they didn't think anything of it since if you failed it you weren't kicked out of the class like you would be for anything else. Turns out that you have to pass it in order to graduate. My teacher didn't want people failing anyway, so he had us do another week of security so people could bring their grades up. The people that had a B or higher in the class were allowed to choose whether they wanted to do all of the security work which included homework, quizzes everyday, and a test which is tomorrow, or else they could do a project. The project was working on the IWT site on the Ranken server to be displayed to everyone. After security I had an 86%, which a 85% is the lowest B possible. I had a choice of what I wanted to do, and I chose to do more stupid security work in hopes of raising my grade to something better than a B. Of course, at the time I thought that we were still doing the new grading scale of 90-100 being an A. No, my teacher changed it back so a 90-93 is a B+ and a 94-100 is an A. Yeah, it's hard to raise your grade to an A to begin with so basically it was impossible for me to do that. I'm hoping that I can raise it to a B+ though. My quizzes have been a 90%, 80%, and today I got 100%. I've done all of the homework, so hopefully I've gotten good grades on all of that. I'm thinking the test tomorrow should be pretty easy. There are a few questions I know I'll have a hard time remembering, but I should do well on it. I got my resume done finally. We had to do it this week and turn it in for a grade and whatnot. I needed to do it anyway though so I could turn it into the school and they could keep it on file and just so I had it done. Mine has like nothing on it. My paper just seems so blank, which that could possibly be because I have all of my skills in a bulleted list which kinda clears up the paper. I went to turn my resume in today so my school could have it on file and whatnot for jobs. Which I did find out today that they do really absolutely nothing for helping people find jobs. They keep your resume and if there are companies looking they will give them your resume, but they aren't having too much luck with companies at the moment anyway. I'm moving to Alabama too so I'm on my own; which more job's are going to be available there than here, so I'll be fine. As for my wrist hurting... I was getting a pizza from the freezer that's in the basement, and as I was walking out the door I went to flip the light switch like I always do and I just happened to slam my right wrist into the door frame really hard. Yeah, I've got a bruise, and it still feels weird at times. Hurt like hell when I did it and it was all red and sore, but now I've just got a little bruise which is probably only visible by me. Kinda like my indent scar on my left shin... People don't notice things like that but I can spot out little things. My teacher has started picking on me this week. I think it was Tuesday that he started it. He was just talking with everyone and I think somone may have said something about the funniest person in the class or else Eric (teacher) did. Anyway, Jarrett asked if it was him and Eric said he was the most annoying. Then he was just like "The funniest person in here, that'd have to be Diane." Obviously I am since I don't really ever talk at all, and I don't do anything in there that anyone would consider funny. Oh the teachers I've had and the sarcasm I've been through. Then today he was talking with everyone like he always does and sometimes he'll stand over by certain people or sit over by them. Well he came over by me and pick up my drink and moved it closer to me and asked if it was mine. I told him it was and then he grabbed my bag of pretzels and asked they were mine and moved them by my drink. Then he pointed to my purse and asked it that was mine. And then he sat down next to me and told me that we needed to have a talk about my attitude. Yeah... I've had lots of sarcasm and teachers just saying whatever, not a big deal or anything. Just something that is, just like with teachers saying nice things about me and my class work I do. It's odd too because he's the only teacher I've ever had where I'd feel weird saying their last name instead of their first name. I don't know, that's just how it is with teachers, you use their last name... actually that's how all the new IWT teachers are... and everyone calls them by their first names, which that's what they'd prefer to go by as well. Weird. March 1, 2004 \|Time\| 6:17 PM \|Sound\| "Figured You Out" NickelBack \|Habit\| putting off studying \|Feel\| my left foot is asleep \|Think\| March! House! Sean! Yay! Alright, it's now March and getting closer to May. The apartment Sean and I were going to get raised their rent yet again, this time to $510. That's just insane so he went looking at places this weekend and we have a house! I'm so excited about everything. Packing a couple of weeks ago made it seem like May 20 was just so close, and now we've got our own house, it's just building up the anticipation even more. I can't wait to be with Sean again. And since everything is the way it is, we're planning on getting married on August 6. I think that date is going to stay. It's only the second time we've changed it. It would be November 21, our anniversary, but that happens to be on a Sunday this year. The only way we could do it that day is if we have a ceremony, and neither of us wants that. Then it got changed to August 2, a Monday so that we could go to city hall and do it and then we could leave the next day for our honeymoon. Now we're no longer doing the honeymoon, which we didn't need it anyway, and it's move to the end of that week, a Friday so that it's more convenient for everyone to be there. Oh! I told my mom last week Monday that Sean and I were getting married on August 2, when it was still then. Me: "August 2nd." Mom: "August 2nd?" Me: "That's the date Sean and I are planning on." Mom: "Why then? Is there something about that date?" Me: "No, we were planning on November 21 but it's a Sunday and we can't do that. And August 2nd is a Monday and inbetween everything and then we're planning on going on our honeymoon the day after." Mom: "Isn't that kind of soon? You're only moving there in May and it'll only be 2 months." Me: "It's not too soon, and I'm not rushing into anything. Everyone is different." And that was the end of that. I was expecting more of the whole "too soon" thing but that was seriously all she had to say. I was so nervous and was sitting in the living room with her for a while before I got the nerve to say anything. I always think my parents are going to act so much more differently than how they actually do. I need to stop expecting the worst with them. I spent the weekend at my sisters. It was one of our "girls' weekends" which consists of me, my sister Chrissy, and my cousins Rachel and Jenny. It was alright. We just hung out Friday night, talked, played Mario Kart on Gamecube, ate some Fondu, which was the first time that I had it and it was pretty good. Chrissy got some new satin sheets and comforter, and I slept in her bed on Friday night and I was going to switch with Jenny on Saturday night since she was on an air matress while Rachel kept the couch. Well, the satin sheets are nice to lay on, but sleeping in them isn't too fun. You move just a little and it's crazy loud. You move just a little and the sheet and comforter shift and slide like crazy. You wake up in the middle of the night and realize that the sheet and comforter are both gone. I don't see how she can sleep in her bed. We all went shopping on Saturday. I don't really like shopping as it is, at least clothes, so with all of them, wasn't too good at all. They're all crazy small and thin and everything, and I'm just not a size 0, not even close. Every single store we went into was a clothing store for them and they were all exactly the same. The largest shirt they had in any store was a Large, and I finally tried one on and with my upper body and ribs and chest, I didn't think I was getting out of it. It just pisses me off so much that stores get all insane with every article of clothing and make everything just so small. I have a shirt that is an extra large from Alloy and that's the tightest I'll go with shirts. I don't like fitted shirts and most stores have only that or else crazy small sizes. I don't even bother going into those types of stores any more. I order clothes from magazines or else get them from actual women's stores like Lerner New York. Now that's a good store. Currently where all of my jeans are from, belt, sunglasses, skirts, a few shirts... I wish I could shop in Express, but they're the same as other stores, the only good thing about that store is the necklaces. Jenny was talking about some shot this weekend where it makes it so you don't have your period for 3 months and there's absolutely no way you can get pregnant. That would be so nice, better than the pill even. It'd be weird not to have a period, but then there's no worrying about any possibility of prenancy and also you don't have to worry about taking the pill. I may have to check into that shot. She said she was on it for two years, so it's not like it's only a 3 month thing. Of course she also said that her period didn't come back for a while and then she started on the pill and then it came back normally. I don't know. I just know that for now it's the pill for me and I have to go and get the last of them before I leave in May cuz I get them at the hospital on base so they don't cost a thing. I know they aren't cheap though. Archives


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