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November 2003
November 11, 2003 |Time| 6:58 PM |Sound| none |Habit| having headaches |Feel| tired |Think| I really wish I was done with school. I ended up getting a 90% on my VisualBasic.NET ATM test. A lot of people got 15 points off for not working as a group properly, but there were some of us that did more work than we had to and got 5 points extra credit. As nice as a 100 or 105 would have been, I'm fine with my grade. I ended up with a B+ for the programming section we just finished, so that grade goes on my transcript. We've started DataBase2 and we're working with Oracle and PL/SQL. Oh how fun it all is... I didn't mind working with Access for database stuff and coding in SQL for that. I'm just not fond of PL/SQL and Oracle. I got my last test grade back today and I did have a 93% because I had some repeating data in a query, but I really didn't so I brought that up with the teacher today and he's going to look at it. It'd really be nice to have my 100%. My grade at the moment is exactly what it was all through the programming, border line B+ and A. I'm pretty sure I have an A at the moment, which I'm thinking I should end with a B+. Which reminds me, I have a quiz tomorrow that I forgot about until now. Quizzes kill my grade. I'm averaging around an 87% for quizzes right now. Homework counts for 20%, quizzes 30%, and tests 50%. I have a 100 for homework and around 93 for tests. Oh how I hate 10 question quizzes. You'd think they'd be easy, but they really aren't. I went and visited my cousin Jennifer in Carbondale this weekend. We got Chinese food on Friday night and my fortune cookie was right on. It said: "You or someone you know will be married within a year." It's actually a little over a year, but I was just surprised when I opened that up and read it. They're usually just fun to read, and I wasn't expecting that sort of comment. My sister thinks I'm rushing into things with being engaged, so it's a good thing she doesn't know that we have a day picked out already. A guy in my computer class, asked me the other day what it was that appealed to me about getting married and being only 19. I told him that I've found the person I want to be with for the rest of my life. Unless you've found that person, there's no way for you to understand at all. You just know how perfect it is, and it's just so amazing you can't even begin to explain. I've seen a few movies this weekend. The Life of David Gale, The Hours, Catch Me if You Can, Rounders, and The Matrix Revolutions. All were good, though the only thing I can say about The Hours is that it was just kind of there. Other than that one movie, all of them were good. Matrix Revolutions was so much better than Matrix Reloaded, which I really didn't like. The first and third movies were good and just fit. The second was all action and a few new things to the story that left you angry and wishing death upon people and just wondering where the hell they were going with the story. Revolutions finished it all of nicely though. My parents are now back from vacation. November 1st was their 25th wedding anniversary and they went to Hawaii for 8 days, and then they went and visited my great grandpa in California for 3 days. It was nice being able to be alone, but I don't like being left in a house all by myself, especially for that long. I'm scared of my basement as it is and it's just creepy with nobody else here. I had to close my parent's bedroom door along with the spare room door, and the door leading to the basement is always closed whether I'm down here or not. I'm pretty sure I do that so I can hear if anyone is going to come into the basement. I can't wait until I move in with Sean. It'll be perfect, plus I won't have to be left home alone and he's agreed to kill any spiders/bugs. (You're so nice hun.) It needs to be May now so I can be done with school and move... November 25, 2003 |Time| 2:41 PM |Sound| "The Sweetness" Jimmy Eat World |Habit| losing fillings |Feel| I'm just kinda here |Think| I wish it was Christmas Friday, November 21 was Sean and my one year anniversary. It's honestly been the best year of my life, and I know it'll just keep on getting better. It just all happened so suddenly and out of nowhere, and it's just so weird to look back at it all. I mean, I had stopped using ICQ for a few months because I didn't have any friends using it any more and anyone who tried to talk to me ended up being a complete idiot. But then one day I was using the notes option they used to have on it and I noticed I had a request from someone so they could add me to their contact list. Usually I'd just check out the person's info and then they'd go to my ignore list, but this one was different. He was interested in some things I was and had made his info fun. I knew I had to talk to him. I was so close to just putting him on my ignore list automatically, but I'm so glad I didn't. So, I came home from bowling one night and went online to check something and he happened to be online. It was 10:21 when we started talking, and I figured I'd just talk for a little while and then go to bed cuz I had to get up at 5:30 to go to school. Time just flew by and I finally said I needed to go after 12. We talked for exactly 2 hours; we said good-night at 12:21. After that, we talked for 4 hours or more at a time. We met in May and spent a week together. Then I went and visited him for two weeks in August. He'll be here on December 26 and stay for a week. We'll be engaged at that time. When I'm done with school in May, I'll pack and say good-bye to everyone and move in with Sean. At the moment we've got our date set on our two year anniversary. That could change depending on what we plan to do since we don't want to have a wedding. Right now I can't wait until Christmas, then after that I won't be able to wait until the end of May. I can honestly say that if I had never even talked to Sean, my life would be lousy now. All of my happiness comes from Sean. My computer died on Friday night. I have no idea what happened to it, but I couldn't even get it to run in safe-mode. So, Saturday I got out my cds and reformatted my computer. I'm so happy I had taken time to save things to cd over the months cuz otherwise I would have been completely screwed. The only thing I really lost was some 80 or so songs I had downloaded and hadn't gotten around to putting on cd, and of course my milllions of links. I didn't really care about losing anything but all of those links. Links to forums, art, comics, and just pages I had come across and liked. Luckily I had just redone my links page on my site, so I saved my links to code pages, font pages, and some decent graphics pages. Now the only thing wrong with my home computer is that I have no sound. Luckily I can hook my laptop up to my cable connection and use it. Otherwise I would have been really unhappy seeing as how Sean and I use the computer to talk on the phone so we don't have a phone bill. Sure I've got a cell phone and minutes, but not enough for the amount of time we talk. Friday night we had to talk on an actual phone and we did so for 4 hours. It'd be alright if I had the 5000 nights and weekend minutes for weekdays, but I go to bed pretty early now and I'm in bed by the time the night minutes kick in. I was eating lunch earlier, and I had a tuna sandwich. Well when I have tuna, it's gotta have chopped up pickles in it and mayonnaise. So, I was eating and at one point it felt like I had bit down on something hard. I never felt anything after that so I figured it was just a piece of pickle. Then I moved my tongue to the right side of my mouth and it felt like I had something rough on the top row of teeth. I thought maybe I had made a filling loose so I went and checked it out in the mirror. No, it was worse than that. I lost a filling, but it was a small one on the side of a tooth. Luckily it doesn't hurt yet, but now I'm gonna have to make a dentist appointment to have it redone. I've never had that happen before. I just hope I don't have any pain until after Thanksgiving, cuz there's no way in hell I'm missing out on turkey, and then leftover hot turkey sandwiches. We're actually having Thanksgiving at my house this year so I get leftovers. I'm eating whether it hurts or not. I get to do my yearly day-after-Thanksgiving babysitting job. It's interesting because I don't like kids. It's only like 6 hours or so and I'm sure he'll have video games to play and whatnot. I'm wondering if the kid's cousin, whom I used to watch/drive around in the summer, will decide to stay there or else go shopping with everyone. I'm really hoping he goes shopping cuz there's no way I'll be able to put up with him. I'm also going to have to tell his mom I won't be able to watch him anymore since I'll be moving. That'll be fun cuz I'll have to tell her not to say anything to her mom cuz she talks to both my grandma and mom, and I'm not telling my parents until Christmas. I know my dad thinks I'll be moving when I'm done with school, but my mom likes to pretend as though I'm never going to even move out of the house. I know there she realizes it, but I am her youngest child and I'm not going to be just like a 45 minute drive away like my sister is; it'll be a good 12 hours away. So Christmas will be fun because I get to tell my parents that I'm moving and that I'm engaged. Unfortunately my sister already knows I'm getting engaged and thinks I'm rushing into things and whatnot, which I know is exactly what my parents and the rest of my family will think. They just don't understand how it is at all. Everyone is different with how much time they need. My friend Becky, her brother dated a girl for 6 months, they're engage now, and they're getting married in March. It only takes months for some people and for others it takes years. In my case it was months. I understand my family wants what's best for me, but this is what's best. I would be completely miserable if I didn't have Sean in my life. He's the only person who knows how I really am. Friends, family, and everyone else only know so much about me because I'm not, and never will be, completely myself when I'm around them. They can never really understand my personality, and that's why I only ever show part of it. Archives |
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