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August 2003
August 19, 2003 |Time| 5:31 PM |Music| "Weathered" Creed |Habit| not passing my CIW tests... |Feel| tired |Think| at least i no longer have a certain song stuck in my head So I'm back from visiting Sean, unfortunately. I had the best two weeks of my life. It doesn't even matter what we're doing, I just love being around him. I really didn't want to come home, but I have one year of school left; once that's done, I'll be out of here and truly happy. My dad apparently didn't think I was going to come home. My aunt told me that he thought him and my mom would be there to pick me up at the airport and I just wouldn't be there. As much as I would have liked to have done something like that, I never would. While I was in Alabam! (as it will always be known now), I went to a restaurant and attempted to order a drink. Me: "Mr. Pibb" Waiter: "Sweet Tea" Then he looks at Sean and says: "Sweet Tea" And by this point we were just so completely confused and wondering what the hell and the waiter went off to get us both sweet teas. *lol* I just don't see how anyone can possibly get sweet tea from mr pibb but alright, it made for an interesting and funny experience. It's a lot of fun to tell people about too. Apparently my Illinois accent is not understood by all. =) We had fun at the beach. We didn't quite do what we had planned, but it was still fun. I did get buried in the sand, which led to me having a ton of sand in my swimsuit and it kind of ended up all over the place... (It was all Sean's fault! Oh, it was... If I could have removed my swimsuit in the tub it wouldn't have ended up all over the bathroom floor, and the hall floor, and some in the tub. *cough*...) Anyway, beach, fun. Had a jellyfish about a foot away from us while we were in the ocean. First I got to see a shark while at Seal Beach in CA, and now a jellyfish at Panama in FL. I wonder what's next. We fed the birds some chips and pissed of the idiots next to us. One bitch next to us complained they were flying over her, yet since we were feeding them they were all standing in front of us. Besides, we were there first and if they didn't like it they could just move. They didn't stay too long though, which was good. Then people pissed off the lifeguards by being way far out and refusing to come in and then flipping them off. Oh how fun it can be when people are stupid. Sean and I saw and watched quite a few movies. We saw Terminator 3, Pirates of the Caribbean, League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, and 28 Days Later; all of which were good. We watched The Trouble with Harry, Ghost World, Johnny Mnemonic, Fear and Loathing in Los Vegas, Solaris, The 25th Hour, Equalibrium, and Daredevil. I think that was all of them. Then there was Starwars. Oh the fun we had with playing that. Even though I wasn't playing, I had lots of fun. I went and took my CIW Application Developer test with Nichole today. Oddly enough, we both got the same score, 53%. *lol* We were just happy that we got over half right. Did we care? Nope, sure didn't. Oh well. I'm going to the dentist tomorrow morning and then I'm going to Ranken to pick up my books. Then on Thursday I'm going to get my dress for my cousin's wedding altered. Friday I may be going out with a few friends, not sure cuz I think they're going to this picnic thing and if so then I'm not. Not really my idea of fun. I've been really weird with sleep lately. It seems that once I become tired and ready for bed or I don't get enough sleep, my head hurts. It's more annoying than anything else. I don't know what the deal is. Plus I haven't been able to sleep for even 8 hours at one time. Oh how I wish I could sleep for 12 hours or so again. I guess it's good that I don't need too much sleep since I will be starting school on Monday and will have to be getting up before 6 every morning. Oh well, only one more year... and then I can get up early for a job... at least it won't be for school though. "...How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year..." "Wish You Were Here" Pink Floyd Oh how I wish you were here... August 21, 2003 |Time| 7:28 PM |Music| "Wish You Were Here" Pink Floyd |Habit| crying |Feel| insanely sad |Think| life is evil I'm just so depressed right now. And the one person that I would talk to that could help is the reason I'm sad. I can't talk to him now because doing so just makes me even more depressed. I cried three times within an hour of talking to him, and now I am yet again. I hate being away from him for a day even, and I have to go four months. The two months over the summer wasn't too bad, but the only reason that was is cuz I knew it was only two months and then we were going to have two weeks together. Now I know I have to wait until Christmas and then it's only for a week. I'm so excited about everything that's going to happen then, but it's just so far away. And then of course I have to think about the other 6 months following Christmas before we can be together yet again. I can't wait for the day we can be together permanently. That's the only thing right now that makes me happy; just thinking about that day. Life is evil, and so are people. People are without even realizing it. Plus they don't realize how lucky they are to be able to be around the one they love. My cousin Jenny apparently knows, which she told me it sucks, and boy do I know that. I'm not sure I'll make it with friends talking about their boyfriends or even the guys they like. I'm happy for them and all, but listening to them talk about it just makes me think about how hard it is for me. I'm sure they don't even realize it, and I have a feeling they will once I start crying. There's a chance that this may occur tomorrow when I go out with some friends. Of course, I do get to break the news to the rest of them, I've already told one, that I won't be having a New Years party this year. I'm spending my entire week alone with Sean. I only get one week and I'm not going to talk to them even once during that week. I'm not sure how I'm going to tell them that I'm not talking to them for a week and that they had better not interrupt it. But I get to be around them throughout the year, I've only got one week with the person I love. I love my friends to death, but my soulmate means so much more. Archives |
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